If I wasn't afraid

Mead of Poetry: Four

Last month, I turned 30. My goal for this new decade is to be more fully and fearlessly myself more of the time. In the first single from her upcoming album (see below), Florence Welch sings:

here I don’t have to be quiet

here I don’t have to be kind

extraordinary and normal all at the same time

I want to spend more time “here” during my thirties. I want to come home to myself. I want to live here.

Below is the next poem in my Mead of Poetry series. Tell me if you feel something ⚘

If I wasn’t afraid

if I wasn't afraid

I would create without bounds

Birthday Suit Central

myself in my rawest form

no fear, no shame, full honesty

I would announce what I want

I would make more messes

my mistakes would be loud

I would fail on full view

if I wasn't afraid

my little monsters would sleep

no more messages of doubt

finally they would rest

tucked up in their teeny monster beds

would they dream,

if I wasn't afraid?

bare feet and naps in dirt

public crying promising friends

just how much they matter

my world, the world, would glow

like worms or sticks or embers

a warm and pulsing light

every breath would electrify

my wonder shared with the world

connective outlooks

Like desire. Like god. Like release.

my hunger would become me, but

only if I wasn't afraid

endless portals through

limitless lessons

The Fool jumping off the cliff

falling or floating, no matter to me:

she who is not afraid.

Tunes for Fools

If you too are contemplating the prompt if I wasn’t afraid, please dive into “Everybody Scream” by Florence + The Machine. Since its August release, this song has been on repeat for me in a meaningful way. It has been my theme song. My rallying cry. My anthem of hope. My expression of rage.

a poignant moment from I Think You Should Leave

I could quote the entire song’s lyrics to you, attempting to underscore their significance. Each line building upon the next. I’ll keep my most favorite lyrics to myself so that you may find your own.

When this song plays, I feel free. I feel full.

I hope you do too.

Thank you for reading Cool Fool. I’m honored that you put my words in your brain.

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